wheew. and i was there
"hoi kim and gerald bumaba na kayu jan sa stage, kakainip na eh
"un ung asa isip ko dat tym
panu, syet! ang sakit na ng paa ko.. ang sakit na ng leeg ko.. panu ang hirap maging pandak .. awwwch
naka relevie bah naman ako .. nyeK! parang nagjigymnast hihi
tapuz nakita ko nag-aayuz na ng drumset..teka si melvin robles ba yun? xa nga xa nga
ankyut nia nyay!so ayun..wah si melvin na ung tinitingnan ko.. tsk tsk tsk
gawd i'm juz 15 anu.. well it's normal naman to have a crush dba?
so ayun.. nung tinawag na ung banda.di pa lumabas si kuya teddy.tsk tsk tsk. nasa side ko pa si kuya jowi.. nyaY ang kYut ng eyes! anguapo
tska si kuya christian. hihi.ang di ko makita ay sina kuya juven, at kuya jeff.pero si melvin nakikita ko..wah!sigaw na ako ng sigaw ng JOWIIIII.. kahit di pa nagsisimula ung gig
wahaha atat na atat eh tapuz ung nasa harap ko na girl biglang.. hey-sira-na-eardrum-ko look xa saken nYaY, mukhang makakasagupa pa ako ng away ah.. nakuu.. pero still sigaw pa rin ako ng sigaw ng JOWIIIIIII bahala xang mapika
wahahaha bad nung lumabas si kuya teddy di ko xa nakita.. panu sumakit na leeg ko,pinagpahinga ko muna..nakikijam ako wyl tumutugtog yung banda
so yung lalaki naman na nsa side ko ang tumitingintingin saken.. "baket?" look ako.. wahaha. natatawa ako sa mukha nia..
so ayun tuloy ang pagtingala ,pagrelevie at pagsigaw.. JOWIIIIIIII, JEFFFFFFFFF, CHRISTIANNNNNNN, JUVENNNN SYET!, KUYA TEDDY I LOVE YUUUUU.. tsaka MELVIN ROBLESSSSS?????? hahaha.. biruin nio sinisingit pa haha.. kasi nman, kamukha nia kuya ko. pwamiz
so ayun..lumipat ako ng pwesto (sa may gilid ng stage)kasi patapos na ung gig..nafifeel ko na malapit na akong umuwi..pero ung mga supposed to be na kasama ko, missing pa rin,(-- may plgay akong sa gig ng kamikazee sila pumunta
haynaku kabad3p tuloy .. --)ayun nung lumipat ako, si kuya teddy bumaba ng stage lumapit samen
nakuu.. nakipaggitgitan ako.. bwahaha.. wala lang nahawakan ko si kuya teddy ansya tapuz si melvin smile ng smile. kakatuwa ung dimples. naglolokohan sila nila kua juven tska kuya jeff
parang may prOb.. base sa mukha ni melvin. drums ata ni kuya jeff..kalog tlaga itoNg si kuya teddy anuh.. nYek. tawa kami ng tawa. muntik na akong kabagan .. nyaY
so ayun, tapuz after ata ng deadma umalis na ako dun.. naghahanap ulet ako ng kakilala. tapuz tumayo ako sa may pizzahut. tamag tama.. umulan
wahaha. ung mga taO nagsitakbuhan. si kuya teddy naghubad ng shirt.tsk tsk tsk. ganun natapos ung show ng Rocksteddy..
pero sana maulit pa..
{ felt: } kaya ayun nagkasakit
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** eto yung story from the song jeepney by spongecola, gawa ulet ni mr. jed arcilla..
link: www.taenawalangtitletongsitenato.tk
i'm not xur wid the link 
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1998
Black clouds blanked the orange sky. Thunder cried out to the heavens and everything below cowered under its shout. Fat, sharp raindrops pummeled the ground and the violent gusts spread out the depression on earth.
Amidst the screen of darkness and obscurity, a bright light of white shone. In the middle where all of the elements met directly, a couple stood alone.
They stood under the shelter of a white umbrella. Forehead to forehead, nose to nose, hand in hand. Both lost in each other’s stares, both found in each other’s hearts.
I.
2005
The heavy wooden door slammed hard for the third time this week. The thin blue walls of the flat shook and the whole room vibrated, sending a dazed figure down the linoleum covered floor.
“Tangina! What the fuck, man!?” the shaken up man shouted. “How many times do I have to tell you? No slamming! Shit.”
The other loosened his tie as he paced around the room. He seemed ecstatic, but at the same time, agitated.
“Shut up, Mark. I just came from a date from hell. What the fuck are you doing here, anyway? It’s a Saturday night for crying out loud.”
Mark stood up. He wore a plain white Hanes t-shirt and his favorite Scooby Doo boxers. An end of a pink blanket rested over one of his shoulders and the other dangled awkwardly down his waist. If not for his grave, “i-am-a-fucked-up-wreck” expression, the scene could have been very comical.
“You look like shit. What’s wrong with you?” the other asked as he poured the milk on the bowl of old Coco Crunch cereals.
“She broke up with me, Carl. Nicole broke up with me.”
Carl was in the middle of chewing when he paused. He looked as if he just chewed on his old socks. He stared blankly at Mark and then his chewing commenced.
“Again?” he asked as he swallowed a healthy serving of cereals. “When will you learn?”
“Screw you, Carl.” He said weakly as he slumped down beside his friend. For a moment, he seemed to consider not talking, but after staring at the blank T.V. screen for a while, he added “It still hurts, you know?”
“Yeah, whatever man. You say that every time.” Carl said quietly.
Mark slapped Carl’s arm and continued to stare at the T.V. screen. “What the fuck is wrong with you, anyway? How did the date with that psycho chick go?”
“Don’t ask.” Carl scowled.
“Buh. That’s the third time this week! When the hell will you try and actually get to know one well before dismissing?”
“Never. They just can’t compare.”
The statement silenced both of them for a while. Carl continued to munch down his bowl and Mark stared at the DVD rack. Their silence was broken by Mark’s audible sigh.
“Sentimental bastard.” Carl whispered.
“Hey, fuck you, man. You wouldn’t know what it feels like to just hold on to someone and not want to let go.” He retorted.
Carl stopped eating his cereal abruptly and laid the half-eaten slop down the table. He stood up and walked towards his room.
“I’m going to bed.”
Mark was shocked by his friend’s reaction. “What? You’re not telling me something, what really happened in your date?”
Carl turned around and flashed his middle finger. “It was fucked.” He said. He then retired down to his room.
II.
Carl walked around the block to look for a quiet and dry place to study. His midterm exams are a few hours away and all the last minute dates he made at up all his time for studying.
He tried Starbucks first, but cursed himself for even considering the place.
It’s the midterms and it’s Sunday. What the fuck was I thinking? He thought. In any other day, he would have found this amusing, but humor just couldn’t penetrate today.
He bought his Grande Cappuccino and went directly outside. He sat on the sidewalk and he rested his back on the seemingly clean pillar. When he was satisfied with his position, he started to read.
In the middle of the discussion of polygamy and conjugal love, he felt a light tap on his shoulder. He quickly turned around, expecting to see Mark’s smug smile and geeky glasses. But he wasn’t greeted with the warm smile he anticipated nor the thick plastic glasses, instead, he was shocked to see a well-moisturized pretty face and hazel brown eyes.
It was Nicole.
“Hey Carl! That’s one depressing position. Why don’t you join me? i won’t be a burden, don’t worry.” She said with her usual toothpaste commercial smile.
Carl hesitantly picked himself up and his books from the pavement. He joined Nicole in a two-seater table in the corner of the place. He didn’t know if he should bring up the issue. He thought about it for a while, but decided to shut up.
“How are you?” She asked.
“Thriving. I find everything around me so stressful.” He forced a weak smile. It was awkward, very awkward. “How about you?”
“Nothing much.” She said, then she began to read her thick Sociology book.
Carl wanted to leave. The tension was so immense; he was having a hard time breathing. He thought that they were out of the break-up issue but Nicole reached for the tips of his fingers and squeezed. It was her serious squeeze.
“We broke up.” She followed up.
Carl withdrew his hands from her grip and avoided the eye contact Nicole was trying to establish. “What’s the reason this time?”
She was taken aback by his tone. She felt tears well up her eyes but fought the instinct of crying. “I just don’t like what’s happening anymore.” She said.
Carl’s ears were heating up. Blood rushed in his head. He felt his fury building up.
“You never liked what was happening.” Carl added. “I don’t know why you keep coming back to him.”
“We can’t keep on doing this to Mark. I love Mark, and you’re his best friend. I just don’t think we should continue on with what’s happening now.” She whispered. “Let’s end it all as soon as we can. Let’s end it now.”
Carl was really furious. His face turned beet red and he can’t help but raise his voice.
“Your relationship was on and off for seventeen times this year alone. What the fuck do you want to do to the guy? Kill him with depression? He can’t take what you’re doing to him anymore!”
“What about you? How dare you? You have no right to say that to me!”
“This was a bad idea. I’m leaving.” Carl stood up and gathered his books.
“Carl, please.” Nicole’s eyes were watery.
“It was just one night, Nicole. It was nothing but just one night. It doesn’t mean anything to me and I don’t think it will mean anything to him too.” He was lying. He was good at it.
“It meant a lot to me.”
“Too bad.”
Carl stormed out of the coffee shop, gripping his books tightly, trying to keep his cool, fighting back the tears.
He just can’t let go. He promised.
III.
1998
Hand in hand under the rain, they walked. They walked as slow as time would allow, savoring every moment they had together. It was all perfect, they did not care about anything in the world, just each other.
The boy, the taller one, held on to his partner’s arm. He loved caressing his partner’s smooth arms. The shorter one looked up and smiled brightly at his partner.
They stopped in the center of the park. Both embraced by the comforting coldness the weather brought. No one spoke, they were both contented by the words the wind whispered in their ears.
The taller one spoke first.
“I love you.”
“Don’t say that.”
“But I do.”
“I know you do and I love you just the same.”
Silence.
The smaller one spoke.
“I never thought this would happen. You were never my type.”
“And you think you’re my type? Excuse me, but give me some more credit.”
Light laughter.
The taller one said.
“But, we’re still friends, right? I know this won’t last, but I hope our friendship does.”
“Of course, we’re best friends after all.”
“Promise me that you’ll never let our friendship go.”
“I promise. Do you swear it?”
“You know I do.”
The smaller one tip-toed and kissed the taller one on the lips. It was a soft, gentle kiss, sealing their oath.
They walked back to the car, taking slow, small steps, not wanting to let go. But deep inside, they knew that it could never be. They both knew that they will have to bury that day under their memories.
IV.
2005
“Why did you go psycho on her?! What the hell were you thinking?” Mark frantically shouted.
“Oh, you’re talking to that little bitch again?” I guess I did well.” Carl said and as if on cue, the canned laughter from Will and Grace rang.
“Turn that off, man. We need to talk.” Mark sat on the coffee table, blocking his friend’s view of the television.
Sensing that Mark had no time for joking around, Carl sat up and turned the television off. “What?”
Mark looked at his friend as if lost in deep thought. After a few seconds of silence, he finally spoke. “What happened to you?”
Carl, who was staring at the carpet ever since he sat up, looked at his friend’s face and scratched his head. “What the hell are you talking about?”
“You weren’t like this before. I mean, you didn’t change in general, but with Nicole? What the fuck man?” Mark said in a steady but disdainful tone. “You two were like twins! No one can separate you both. What the hell happened?”
“People change, Mark. You can’t expect them to stay the same forever.” Carl said.
“Of course, but people don’t change that fast. What happened? We never talked about it.”
“How could we? She’s your girlfriend!” Carl said mockingly.
Just after the words escaped his lips, he regretted it. Mark looked away and sat there silently for minutes.
Carl can’t take the tension anymore and decided to break the silence himself. “Are we done here? Is it okay to turn the television on?”
“Tell me,” Mark said quietly “tell me the truth. Is she cheating on me with you?”
“What?!” Carl dropped the remote and stood up. His face was burning up.
“Is she cheating on me with you?” Mark said. He too stood up and faced his friend.
Carl looked as if he was ready to punch Mark’s face in. He was beet red and he can feel his ears twitching. “Fuck you man. Seriously, fuck you.” Carl said as he picked up his jacket.
“You never answered the question.” Mark said silently. He wasn’t looking at Carl anymore; he just stared at his feet.
“Fuck you, man. Go to hell.” Carl said as he stormed out of the dorm.
V.
Carl always went there to cool down. For some reason, the organic unity of the place made him forget about all of his problems. But tonight was a special case.
He walked down the path they created and he wept. He hid his tears in the night, just as he always did. He followed the moist path down the bench he loved. It was their bench.
He sat down and buried his head in his hands. As he cried, he remembered the promises, he remembered the nights, he remembered the stars in the sky, he remembered the time they spent together under the rain.
Then, rain started to pour. Coldness enveloped his already numb body and he involuntarily shivered. He let the raindrops fall over him, not caring about anything.
He felt a prick on his sides. He opened his eyes and he saw the familiar shoes. He caught the scent of the familiar fragrance in the air.
He looked up and saw Mark, smiling weakly, standing there with a white umbrella in one hand and a flower in the other.
“I thought I’d find you here. You were always the sentimental one.” Mark said. Carl was dumbfounded. His mind was blocked and he can’t say or think of anything. By impulse, he stood up and hugged Mark tight, just like before, when the small one held tightly on the tall one.
He never wanted that moment to end. They were there again, together. He didn’t want to let go, he didn’t want him to go. Carl cried some more because of happiness, because of love and because of the realization that once again, this event will be buried in memory.
He was powerless.
He knew that after this moment, all he could do, was remember.
{ felt: } was fascinated
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oH syEt!
JAMIR!!!!!!!!!
wala na ambaliw ko kanina.
luPEet nakasalo ako ng poster.
nYeEEEEEEE
ayUn pati piC ko may pirma nila.
that day lang nalaman na pupunta pla ang slapshock sa gmall. di tuloy kami nakapagready,.
ang swerte ko ata nGaung araw ahhhh..
fEeel ko talaga :D
ang gwapo ni JAMIR!!!!!!!!!
{ felt: } inlab!!!
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masaya nQ okei na kami ni batman. ang saya :D
{ felt: } super saya
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kaloko ng sunday anu?5-1, panalo ang pilipinas sa boxing world cup kaasar lang kasi si bOombOom natalo pa asar asar asar!
monday
dba promiz ko, INVISIBLE na si batman?
hay buhay, destined ba talagang xa ung unang classmate ko na makita kanina? ha? ha? ha?
owell. bahala xa!
and sna ung mga lalake sa harapan sana di na sila magmention ng paulitulit ng "batman" ayun mas lalo atang naiinis si batman saken
huhu
kainiz kah batman pinaiiyak mo ako
sus anguapo mu pa naman
si teddy bear nang-iinis tuloy.
hmp!
may tRabaho ako sEcretary ni mYke
runaway- by avril lavigne
best damn thing album
Got up on the wrong side of
life today yeah
Crashed the car and I'm gonna
be really late
My phone doesn't work cause its
out of range
Looks like it's just one of those
kind of days
You can't kick me down Im already
on the ground
No you can't cause you couldn't
catch me anyhow
Blue skies but the sun isn't coming
out no
Today it's like I'm under a heavy
cloud
And I feel so alive
I can't help myself,don't you
realize
I just wanna scream and lose
control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and
runaway yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and
runaway yeah
So so is how I'm doing if you're
wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but
I'm winning
Stay there come closer it's at
your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can
be a bitch
But I feel so alive
I can't help myself,don't you
realize
I just wanna scream and lose
control
Throw my hands up and let it
go
Forget about everything and runaway
yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and
runaway yeah
Runaway Runaway......
I just wanna scream and lose
control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and
runaway yeah
I just want to fall and lose
myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and
runaway yeah
wala na akONg ibang magawa
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invisibility mode
:batman:
and our story ends so soon to say goodbye, but o well . even it is the most painful thing to do, do i have a choice?
fOr the meantime, batman and i are NOT TALKING. HE is INVISIBLE. fOr me he's not existing
we're good
that's it.
wala na
natapos na
identity surrendered
alam na nia, nabuking na ako
i'm hurt
xempre kaibigan ko na xa eh tapoz ala nah. pOof! wala nah! sigh
-end-
to yuan
urgh!
UST vs DLSU
ai labyu MIRZA!!!!!
ai labyu talaga!
yey! nanalo sila
USTE USTE USTE!
{ felt: } wala wala wala
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kakainiz ang daming nangyari. para bang day to ng aminan! asus!
okei. first, nagtanong si teddy bear tungkol sa "kanyang palagay". ang kapal talaga! hay. tinanong nia ako kung may "gusto" si eldz sa kania! da trUth is wala. sinabi ko yun sa kania. walang gusto si eldz sau (period!). satisfied! kapal nia anu? (peace teddy bear ) . si eldz kasi ung classmate namin na taga manila. sa dinamidaming gwapo sa manila, taga davao ba naman pipiliin nun? haay.so ayun. nakwento ko yun kay eldz. tawa lang xa ng tawa. tapuz, kinomfront nia si teddy bear. well, binibiro lang nia tlaga un. eH etong si teddy bear siraulo, binlackmail ako sasabihin nia daw ung identity ni batman. siraulo talaga! so nung nilapitan nia si batman hinila ko bigla si batman at ayun sinabi ko identity nia. buking nQ
me: diba naririnig mu ung batman batman namen?
batman: uu
me: okei. kaw si batman
batman: (tumango)
oH syET! so ayun nga buko nQ panu na yan? sira na frenshep namen ganun? haaay wala na to!
parang ayun, nung b4 nagmath umakyat ako para humingi ng papel ke bru. haaaay. calvin at least napapasaya mu ako
wahaha. inlab na yata ako
.... nag-iisip ako kasi ung topic namen ni eldy nung COMPRO eh, landian. owell, si jhaniz pla. may cRush kasi si brendell ke teddy bear. eh crush nga ni jhaniz si teddy bear eh. kania ung codename na teddy bear sigh. binabackstab daw nila brendell si jhaniz hay naku!. mga babaeng ubod ng arte ang mga un. insecuRe!!!!!!!!.. ang iniisip ko ay: kung maxado bah tlga akong obvious to the point na parang FLIRTY na nga ako? i admit. outspoken ako. maxadong prangka. walanghiya! ahihi. inamin ko nga diba kay batman na crush ko xa so ayun.buti wala pa maxadong nakakaalam sa identity ni superman yoko ung frenshep namen masira catastrophe na un nakup! ung tungkol ke calvin. si jason lang ang nagpapalaki nun haaay. alam na nia.bRu kasi eh tapuz dumagdag pa si jul pasaway! and then kanina nga eh asUs jason! kung puedi nga lang mag-evaporate eh nung dumaan ako sa harap ni calvin. . kakahiya talaga ung panunukso ni jason. super papansin din ako kay calvin nung nsa MAGSAYSAY PARK kami for PE. first session kasi ung kanila ayun. kawawa ako aminado talaga inlab na nga yata ako eh mabanggit lang pangalan nia. asus iba nah. di na mabubura ung smile na malapad sa mukha ko sigh panu ba yan?di pa kami nagbebreak ni edjel. panu gusto ko harapin kami mag-usap. pero para saken break na kami. siya lang ung insistent. oH naman! haha sa ayun nah ang lungkot ng araw diba?
parang ayaw na nga akong kausapin ni batman
lunch ko zagu. kung lunch ba yun ube flavor. sa portcafe. si bRu maxadong inlub. haaay. buti pa xa. auz ung luvlife. ang gulo nung saken eh
naging masaya naman araw ko he viewed my profile sa friendster hahaha. ansaya
{ felt: } ambaliw oH
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